I should really be doing English coursework at the moment, but well you knwo how it is, whenever you need to do something important you can always think of things you could be doing that are more... well less courseworky. I was looking through my gallery and i am actually quite discraced at some of the shit i put up and that i was proud of it! i mean how dellousional was I? I think its time for me to leave this shitty page alone and just not claim any inolvment in it, apart fro the odd peice that i am acctually still quite proud of. It really shows me how much i have changed over the last year, i am a completely diffrent person to the person i was this time last year, its like i acctually feel like i can finnaly say i am me, not something i'm not, i am just trying my hardest to be me and enjoy it, and its actually working quite well. Sure my heart still ache's over the loss of a love i experienced and i still wake up every day wishing i could have it back, but well that soon goes away and the realization sets in that i cant have it anymore, everything ends. I just wish i could still have an element of what i had with her in friendship, but that doesn't seem to work out. Well enough of that, im so close to overcoming that stage in my life, i'm finnaly sorting out my prioitys and trying to sort my own life out. It's hard but well i think i had my fair share of mang over the ladt year, nothing was ever good enough for me. I cant have the picturesqe life i want, i cant have the perfect romantic love i had, instead i have a pretty boreing mundane life and great friends who are always there for me and i have a grat time with. Now thats not so bad is it? I don't quite know what this is about as per usual, but this time i acctually feel quite happy, im sure ill find a way to slip back into a rut as valentines day is soon approahing. But for now i fell quite happy, apart from the fact i have to do Engish coursework and its now 20 to 1, but well thats my fault. I guess that kinda it from me, and to be honest i cant really see myself coming back here to moan about shit and post crappy 'art'

-Don't Be Upset-
-Jeffrey Lewis-

i took my darling out to the aquarium
sea creatures stared at us and we stared back at them
my baby freaked when she peeked at that 8-legged blob with a beak
she was too scared to speak
i said don't be upset it's only an octopus
don't bother it and i'm sure it won't bother us
please don't be upset my darling, please don't get upset
my baby came riding to meet me one time
on the crowed last car of the downtown-bound 9
she was brave but she caved
when the train was delayed
it was just the last straw in her hard busy day
i said don't get upset 'cuz it's not a catastrophe
nothing will happen and soon you'll be back with me
please don't be upset my darling , please don't be upset
my gal's got a headhache, her ankle is hurting too
boots she bought gave her a rash & her winsdom tooth
is coming in and it's damp out and she's having cramps and she's so mad at me cuz i didn't shave
i said don't be upset i know you're feeling sensitive
i'll try to be kinder and be more attentive
please don't be upset my darling please don't get upset
darling i said, i'm gonna be 27 soon
i've only got rejection letters and a sense of impending doom
i think it's too late for me
all the comic companies hate me
and i try but it's always the same
i guess my art is just lame and it's strange but still somehow i'm
always not suiting their needs at this time
and she said ........don't be upset,
you know that you're wonderful
just keep on trying ...(actually what she really said was)
all you ever wanna talk about is your self and your comic books and your album and your tour
and everytime i see your friends they just ask me where you are again and it hurts
it makes me feel like dirt
i'm just gonna write where you are on my shirt
and i said don't be upset, don't be in a bad mood
let's just go to a show and hang out and feel good
come on please don't be upset my darling, please don't be upset, i'll do anything baby, just don't be upset .